So last night I went out -something that literally never happens anymore. I am a wife, a mom, a busy entrepreneur who can barely keep up with her friends.
So even making the time to go out was kind of a big deal. And, if I’m being totally honest, I was a little bit nervous.
You see the friend I went out with is one of my oldest and dearest friends. We have been through so much together. She and I met in college and sure did we know how to have fun! Every weekend was just a matter of where we were going and who was driving. It was so fun, or at least that’s the part I usually choose to remember.
I mean I literally didn’t know what to do with myself last night! I was having fun, but its just different now. We were both wearing our wedding rings so guys were not scrambling to buy us drinks, and even descent conversation was not easy to come by. Guys won’t talk to us because we are married, and girls won’t talk to us because, well, we are girls. If I’m being honest, last night I was a little bit underwhelmed by the life we used to live.
There we were in some of the hottest spots in LA, filled with the most beautiful people and all I kept thinking was how different my life is now from the last time we did that! But not in a bad way, in a way that makes me feel unbelievably grateful for the results that steady, incremental personal growth can make over time.
I will say that a major highlight of the evening was being carded -not at the door by the bouncer (because that’s a given), but by a LADY bartender! Yessssss!
I guess my point is that we are all on a journey, hopefully growing out of who we are and growing towards what we hope to become. There is nothing like going back to a place or a context that you used to know so well, excited to relive the “glory days” only to realize that you just don’t fit in there anymore. You have outgrown it, and it kinda feels great! I loved missing my husband and talking about my son in the middle of a crowded bar because that is my real life party and I get to live it every single day.
Today I woke up humbled and grateful (and not just because I got to sleep until 11:30!!!)